dude i was spending like 6 hours a day playing games (mostly ax) , i tried like 3 times to leave but uhm i swear it was hard for me ... and this was the only way possible , wasn't it ?
Uninstall sa-mp? Remove aX from your favourites? Get some will power instead of backstabbing a server that you WILL one day want to return to? My guess is you were just caught cheating and you're embarrassed about it, hence the "I wanted to get caught" bullshit.