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Just some writing of thoughts.
ﱡ קּﻰﺢ Love:
--- Quote from: Snoopy on October 31, 2009, 06:53:18 pm ---
--- Quote from: AntiVirus on October 31, 2009, 06:00:02 pm ---You will probably laugh at me, but I hate my life. I am lazy, not self-confident etc. Its always the same stuff. I get up, go to school and listen to the bloody teachers for 4 hours. When I get home the first thing I do is turn the PC on. Then msn, Facebook, forums and all that shit. I eat and play on the pc till my parents come and then i start to write my homework. After that I play more, eat and go to sleep. And this happens every day and I know this routine sucks, but I can't find a good motivation to change myself. Just like snoopy, I am too lazy to write homework and study, eventhough from 1st to 6th grade all my grades are A. Sometimes i may go out and hang out with friends, but its rare. I have a lot of friends, I know half of the school, but what are they for when you don't make contact with them? Even now I'm typing this as fast as I can so I can finish my homework and play. I often question myself, what's the point of my life when I the same things all over again? Isn't life suposed to be having fun? In school there is a girl i like, and I think she likes me too. But I don't know how to start because Im very shy. What if she throws a "bucket" at me(refuse/dump me)? I would be humiliated and wont be able to see her again in my life. Im also a bit like McCain, I am anti-social and its a rare thing when I do a new friendship. All the friend i know are people with who i used to study for 7 years, and I got some friend from the neighbourhood.
Also, they torture us alot in school, we learn stuff that were meant for university back in the 1980s. Last year was the hardest for me. Too much homework, I used to stay till 2 o' clock in the morning studing. At that time I was thinking of killing myself, but now I am proud that i menaged to "survive"
Right now I am thinking of how much replies with "lol" will come up.
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(spin) :L lol
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He wouldnt lol if you didnt say lol >.<
[MAF]Snoopy:
;_;
ivanduk:
--- Quote from: Snoopy on October 29, 2009, 03:13:47 pm ---I think that I am suffering from depression and after reading about this illness I realise that I must see a doctor, but I am afraid to.
I feel down all of the time and have no motivation to do anything, including work, exercise, hobbies, even a bath at night.
I just want to read my book, watch television or go to bed.
I feel tired all of the time and people are now always saying how tired I look.
I left work today because I couldn't go through the day.
I managed to talk to a friend yesterday (Andre), he understands and thinks I should see someone. I can’t tell my boyfriend (Chris Twomey), I don't know how to.
If I go to the doctor, I'm sure they will just send me away. I don't think they'll believe anything is wrong!
I've also got a tendancy to say what I think people want to hear.
I had hypnotherapy and counselling and afterwards said I felt okay. But I don't feel okay.
I hate myself, I've put on weight and look fat and ugly, I can't stand that look of hatred in my own eyes when I look in the mirror, and (although I know I be too chicken to do it) I think that maybe the best option is death.
Maybe then people won't have to put up with me any more, always moaning and never doing anything about it. I’m so self-pitying.
I'm sorry to be doing this, but it's a release to just type out the words. To be honest, it's amazing seeing what I have written. :'(
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lol
ﱡ קּﻰﺢ Love:
--- Quote from: AntiVirus on October 31, 2009, 07:19:59 pm ---
lol
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:L Best answer.
[MAF]Snoopy:
--- Quote from: AntiVirus on October 31, 2009, 07:19:59 pm ---
--- Quote from: Snoopy on October 29, 2009, 03:13:47 pm ---I think that I am suffering from depression and after reading about this illness I realise that I must see a doctor, but I am afraid to.
I feel down all of the time and have no motivation to do anything, including work, exercise, hobbies, even a bath at night.
I just want to read my book, watch television or go to bed.
I feel tired all of the time and people are now always saying how tired I look.
I left work today because I couldn't go through the day.
I managed to talk to a friend yesterday (Andre), he understands and thinks I should see someone. I can’t tell my boyfriend (Chris Twomey), I don't know how to.
If I go to the doctor, I'm sure they will just send me away. I don't think they'll believe anything is wrong!
I've also got a tendancy to say what I think people want to hear.
I had hypnotherapy and counselling and afterwards said I felt okay. But I don't feel okay.
I hate myself, I've put on weight and look fat and ugly, I can't stand that look of hatred in my own eyes when I look in the mirror, and (although I know I be too chicken to do it) I think that maybe the best option is death.
Maybe then people won't have to put up with me any more, always moaning and never doing anything about it. I’m so self-pitying.
I'm sorry to be doing this, but it's a release to just type out the words. To be honest, it's amazing seeing what I have written. :'(
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lol
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guess what, that isn't real haha! and everyone fell for it ;_;
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